Not much to say

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Not to be a complete one-note blog here, but I’m having trouble coming up with much to say. I’m just feeling really burnt out, on everything. It’s not that I don’t want to knit, but when I go home, I just wind up not…mostly I’ve been sitting on the couch with the cats, watching bad TV. Last night, I couldn’t even muster up the motivation to put on a DVD!

It’s not depression–I don’t have that tired, constantly sleeping thing going on. I have energy, or at least as much as normal. I just don’t care. Really, seriously don’t care–does it matter? Really? Any of it?

Before anyone freaks, I don’t mean that in a suicidal way. More in a, why not just say screw it and move to God-knows-where and, I don’t know, do nothing. Or something completely random and impractical. Why not? Would it really make that much difference?

It’s just one of those times when nothing seems to work out right, and nothing seems to make any damn difference at all. Even with knitting–I want to knit, but I don’t have the yarn for anything I want to make and I’ve put myself on a yarn diet until I knit up the yarn I DO have. Not to mention, I’m still missing part of my ball winder so anything that has to be wound is out, and I also have holiday presents that I need to be knitting.

I’ve thought about trying to get away, just for a day. Maybe go to the Redwoods or one of the beaches that are an easy drive from here, but honestly? It’s not something I feel comfortable doing by myself. Crazy, right? I pick up and move my sorry ass across the country but I won’t go to the beach?

Thing is, I’m not really what you’d call a nature person. It’s not my element, and I don’t feel comfortable going hiking or anything like that alone. I’m prone to getting lost, and there’s also the whole wild animal element. Not to mention crazy psychos. (Yes, I have just been reading about the Trailside killer, because that TOTALLY helps.) So I’d like to go, but I don’t really feel like I know anyone here well enough to ask them to go with me….and it’s not like I’m athletic, so I’d probably just slow them down anyhow. Who wants to go hiking with someone who can’t keep up?

Anyway, it’s not a big deal and I’m sure I’ll snap myself out of it eventually, but until then I apologize profusely for the boring blog fodder.

Tarot Card of the Day: Strength

  • http://suekearney.com/morninggratitudes sue kearney

    I feel you! Let’s go to the beach together…one of my alltime fave things. And I am the opposite of a hiker; more of a beach/trail stroller. Easy trails too. Sound good?

    See you in — oh! — less than an hour.

  • Kasey

    Nicky claims redwoods are gorgeous this time of year, so that would be a nice diversion-day.

  • http://yarnstormer.blogspot.com Laura

    I hear ya on the general blahs, girl! Maybe when fall rolls around we’ll all be better with life in general…

  • http://9degreesofyarnandme.blogspot.com/ dre_ah

    I’m a hiking gal! I love me some redwoods. I’m out of town this weekend, but let me know you interested another time. I try to get out at least for a few hours twice a month. Last month was Santa Cruz…beautiful and super nice weather.

  • http://knittinggoddess.typepad.com Nicole

    I get that way sometimes. I suggest just getting in the car and driving, stopping at whatever feels appealing.

  • elizabeth

    i’m still determined to take you camping. and you will enjoy it! i just don’t know when that will happen because life is too expensive…can’t we do some geographical shuffling and put dc and san francisco a little closer to one another? who really needs the dakotas anyway?

  • Jani

    *Hugs* to you hunny. I know exactly where you are ‘cos I’m there too. I can’t even go out walking because here in the land of haggis and bagpipes it feels like it has been raining non-stop all summer long. Don’t beat yourself up – go treat yourself to something nice, however small. And keep blogging and smiling :)